The sound of the ice breaking seems to be louder than usual. I fear that I may be breaking, losing myself in this world of self destruction.

How can you be strong all the time? How do I let go of everything that wasn't great in my life? The good and the bad made who I am today. It is hard to look myself in the mirror. What have I become? A far less impressive person than who I use to be.

My marriage seems like a puzzle, and I can never get the damn thing put together just right. My business is a fucking yo-yo, and it is making me stretch further than I ever imagined. My daughter test me every chance she can. I just really hate how complicated everything has to be.

Why can't shit just be easy???

There is no beautiful street to take, no rose colored glasses I can buy, and no magic pill I can take. I just have to live with who I am, and that may be by myself. And it may be my fault.
Tears.... Cry for me.... I'm tired.