Just a nose.

This morning I woke up without my nose ring. So I planned my whole day around getting a new one so that my face would be complete. But before my nose adventure begin, I was hit in the face with my husbands other personality. The unhappy, never smiling, insecure other side of him. He even looks different. At the present moment in my life, I am surrounded by people who are so unhappy, that I completely disconnect myself from them. I can't do this/ it anymore. Other people's feeling are draining me, pulling the spark that I have left out. In this time, that I need a real partner, I feel unattached.

I smile more with strangers. Laugh more at my own thoughts. I have a happier family in my dreams. This was one of the 1st months in a while where I was actually able to pay ALL my bills. Even the one's that I didn't plan on paying. And still no sigh of relief shared. When will it happen, if not now?

My body is screaming for happiness, and I'm headed that way with or without the people who claim to love me.

And to return back to my nose story. I found a great twin to my lost nose ring. A spider with a white sparkly in the middle. Paid $17 for one little nose ring. But I liked it, and it made me SMILE to have it. Then when I picked up my daughter from school, I didn't have her lunch box, so she decides to hit me in the face. (Yes my 3yr old) And you know what happened? Yep, I lost my new nose ring. I wasn't leaving that spot until I found it. I was actually in the middle of a fairly busy street crawling on the ground looking for this tiny spider. And after yelling, swearing, and almost giving up, a sparkle hit my eye. It was my tiny spider. We found each other, and all was well in my universe...