LOST

I sit here with a broken heart. I feel like my heart has been kicked and spit on at the same time. You were suppose to be my best friend, my partner, my favorite man and somehow you've managed to show me that all men are the same. That there really is no Hope, that she is an evil bitch that get's off on hurting people. I cannot trust you, every time I look into your eyes I see the lies you keep trying to hide from me. I feel tricked, betrayed, foolish, and downright stupid because I actually believed you when you said you were going to quit.

Why do you keep hurting me?

I have asked you to stop, but you continually chose your porn addition over me. I have told you how it makes me feel, how it affects the way I feel about you, how it makes me feel about our relationship, and you still chose to lie to me, leave our bed to do what you do.

Why did I get married?

Because I thought I met the man of my un-dreams. I thought you came from the universe to prove to me that there really are good men out there. But I was wrong. You are just a man, and I am just a woman and we are just to fools playing this silly game that WILL END. There will not be a forever for us. MTA means nothing to me anymore, and every time you say it… I hear "you will never be enough." I can't believe I am here again. I can't believe you let me down again. Damn, I don't know my loving you can carry us any further. I will never look at you the same. Never.