It has really been one of those days. Where I feel completely useless and keep asking myself; WHY am I HERE????
Every day there is something else that needs to be fixed, need to be paid for, needs...needs...needs. When does the wants happen? When will I be able to live the life that I know I deserve. I do something everyday for someone else, and rarely is it returned.
Today I sat at the park, and just zoned out for about an hour. Saying nothing. Thinking nothing. Just zoned out, in my middle place. And in the return back to this shitty planet, I had to ask myself: what am I here for? I have never saved a life. Never cured one. Never encouraged the masses. Never started a revolution. I never even see outside of the US, and still I wake everyday to the same schedule in every way.
I am feed up, and tired of doing what I should do because society says so.
Pay your mortgage,
pay to eat,
pay to breathe,
pay to learn,
pay to teach,
pay...pay...pay.
I am going to scream
WHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT THEEEEE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!
SSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!
I feel a little better.
I guess it's just one of those days.
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