remember this?

Do you remember that guy, that begged you to commit? or the guy that just couldn't? do you remember when you gave up things so easy? or when you held on to small things so tight?

i remember being free. i remember being begged. i remember being the center.

it's hard to swallow the thick shit. it makes your throat sore. the count, i don't think is high, but being honest i have had my share of dudes.

basketball

football

poor

rich

educated

stupid as hell

jail birds

babies

one nighties

and everything in between

but i just can't seem to remember where i lost my god-damn mind!

i remember when i had to stop because i just had had enough. i remember when i couldn't take it another day and walked... out. i remember when i stayed and i knew i'd regret it. i remember when i dated that fool because everyone said i should. i remember hating myself for that. he was a complete fuck-up...

should i shout his ass out???

no i won't do that. LOSER!

i remember when he cried in front of me asking me why. i remember setting up 2 booty calls in one night. i remember letting one down. i remember being let down. that shit fucking hurts

those damn let downs

men all always do it.

they always do.

i'll always remember you said forever.

i'll always remember you said 100 times.

i'll always remember you said i was the best.

but more than anything...

i'll remember when i lost that funny feeling.